Candeo Student’s Name Withheld
My background was unique and the source of my sexual addiction, or so I thought. As I have progressed in my recovery and faced the struggles of addiction head on the realization of how much in common I actually have with others continues to surface. For years I thought something was fundamentally wrong with me and after 18 years of marriage and numerous failed attempts to just stop using pornography I began to believe my wife’s frustrations when she would say, “Maybe you really don’t want to give it up. Yet, deep down, I knew my heart longed to be free from the destructive sexual habits of pornography, masturbation, fantasy and various other extremely harmful outlets.
In an act of desperation I came across the Candeo website.My wife had caught me via the history on my work computer, again. This was the final straw, the pain she was suffering, the insecurity she displayed, and the lack of trust toward me caused me to fall into the deepest depression of my life–so deep, I became suicidal.During a scheduled doctor’s visit I was given medication for my depression, but it made me extremely sick physically. Thus, I decided to visit a counselor which coincided with my discovery of the Candeo program. The counselor has been instrumental in helping me face the molestation I was traumatized by as a child, but it was Candeo that truly brought me freedom.
When I first began investigating the Candeo program, I did so via the free mini course email. There was just enough information to inspire me and wet my appetite to join the program. I was hesitant to spend the little bit of money they charge to run the program, but how funny it is how easily I would have spent 10 times the amount on my sexual desires. Thankfully, I was able to get enrolled in the program and began to work it each day. Everyday, I was encouraged and challenged, but not in the ways others had done so in my past; rather, the hope that I could actually be free and my brain could become retrained to not even want unhealthy sexual outlets began to spring forward.
The Candeo program didn’t just help me face my sexual addictions. I’ve come to discover in my life that the pornography was the outlet for deeper issues. After the first few weeks with Candeo I was feeling much better, but still sensed feelings of uneasiness in my own life with the recovery. Something inside of me still felt like I needed more. Well, Candeo provided the something more I was so desperate to find. The remainder of the program dealt with issues that have never been faced in my life.Moreover, it was by sticking with the program to the end that I was able to not only find the freedom to my sexual addictions that had proven so destructive over the 30 years they controlled my life, but I was also able to improve the overall quality of my life.
The Candeo program implements grace, hope and support to help equip each individual to achieve sexual freedom in their lives.
Timothy Azariah
March 26, 2009 • 11:59 pm
thank you so much for such an encouragement. I should believe that I came at the right time to the right place.
I too am a pornography addict, since I was about 17 years. But I have tried for years, struggling to overcome all this, it has left me most of the times feeling exhausted and very suicidal, thinking that maybe the world would be better if I were not born, and thinking that maybe, just maybe, if I did die, then I would have spared a lot of people the heartache of dealing with what the hurtings I gave to them.
However, I do believe that I can and will overcome, trusting in God to lead me through and through. So I have now put my doubts aside and I’m learning to appreciate myself in a new light. Not as a dreamer of the dirtiest sexual acts ever imaginable, but in a healthy relation, with people I interact with.
I don’t have a girlfriend at the moment (I have always believed it to be a self-defensive measure.)
I don’t want to be long in this, but I thank God I came across this program. I would have said I chanced upon it, but I don’t want to say that.
Candeo, I’m registering… and I will be free, praise the Lord, free at last.
Vinster
April 3, 2009 • 4:08 pm
Thanks for sharing. It’s amazing how powerful your insight is. Here so many of us are, “hacking at the branches” of this problem. Almost everyone thinks the ‘problem’ is masturbation and the viewing of pornography. So we stop the behavior. Then we marvel at how it comes back so powerfully, over and over again. Instead of cutting off branches and leaves, you are getting to the roots of this disease. Only when you eradicate those bad roots will the leaves and branches stop coming back. I think you hit the nail right on the head on this one. Keep it up and keep sharing. God Bless.
Edin
June 15, 2010 • 1:15 am
Thank you for sharing your story. Candeo is saving people’s lives. May God bless Candeo.
P.S. I found out that “candeo” is a Greek word which means “light.” Well, quite appropriately chosen name for program that saves human lives.